I play very unstable, sometimes not even bad, three medals even work, to be turned out

But I don't want to give me a head start, to be honest, I can't, so can't be the last, why am I playing poorly, should be the first or in the first rows? Why do I need it? In order to stand on the first steps? Let's see

Well, looking for new opportunities and trying to improve the game, thank you for your efforts!